: ) I'm glad we can both communicate Om. Unfortunately, anything that produces the euphoric / hallucinagenic effect you're looking for really is pretty toxic. I'm not saying that your body can't deal with it and clear it out but I am saying on a chemical, not governmental, basis . . the properties of almost anything psychoactive (i.e. a neurotoxin) is considered a toxin because of the incredible load it places on your liver and various other organs. (including your brain pan : )

Think of all the plants which do not cause any overt mental changes, many of them that are considered safe, like Licorice Root for instance, can really hurt you.

All that aside, I'm not a stranger to using psychoactives but I have only used them in Spiritual Crisis and when I was prepared to. (aside from being a stupid teenager) Never just because I was looking for that state. As it is accesible without plants or anything external. Salvia Divinorum was one I had a profound experience with. I suggest writing while on any mind altering plant substance so you can reflect on the experience with your clear mind and learn what is meant to be learned without needing to revisit it over and over again. This has worked for me profoundly and helps 'seal' the experience. Unfortunately, again, as with many psychoactive plants, the memory and important details of the event fade quickly.

I don't think knockin off a few brain cells is that huge a deal, Lord knows I've ran down quite a few of my own. I think what you're looking for ultimately is a state of mind (or mindlessess) that you can achieve eventually without plants that can make it more difficult for you in the future should you ever choose to want to access this state on your own.

So like I said Salvia is a decent choice, smoked. The high is not long so not debilitating. I suggest being alone when you choose to smoke as any other energy can greatly influence the experience. It's important to create a sacred space that you can meditate in / pray in before and after you smoke. Something that's pure and unassociated with any feeling you have other than calmness. Before I smoked I would line out my intentions as well, no matter what they be (a conduit, a question, a feeling, God, energy, no thing. etc...) Your intentions create your world, they're vitally important to understand.

I hope you find what you're looking for with health, longevity and clarity!

K